Saturday, July 21, 2007

i guess i still love her...

hmm...


didnt tok much to her...


cos i noe my limits...


i wanna help her.....

i wanna tok to her....

i wanna pei her.....

i wana do alot of things for her...

well...
blame mi...
i m uselesss.....


hmm...
i cant do these as much...

i guess....
i m nt fated to....

or rather...


i dunno.....


i always tell myself....

helping someone with ur heart.....
is when u dun expect any returns...

.....

i guess i will stick to this...


u take care...

i wish i have the chance to show hw much i can love you....

i dun even care hw much pple likes to back stab u....

i wish one day....

i could protect u from all these......

rite nw....

i would step away from u....

looking out for u....

dun worry...

i will be able to catch u went u fall...

i promise....

i will throw my pride away.....

to help u....

cos.....

this is hw much i love u.....

with LOVE ; *
2:17 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

u make mi happy....


u called mi to tok to mi...

i m happy...


u called becos u noe when u haf prob i m ther for u...

i m happy....


u wan mi to pei u.....

i m happy....


u bite mi on my hand....

i m happy....


u pinch mi....

i m happy....


we haf a past...
yet...
u nv avoided mi...
and still be close to mi....

i m happy....


u let mi care for you....

i m happy...


all i wan to let u noe.....

tat i m happy......


i acted liek ur friend...
i tried my best to be ur friend....
cos deep inside mi...
i noe....
i still love you...
i still haf feelings for u....



if by any chance.....

i wish i can spend part of my life wif u again..

thanx for the memories...

=)......

if ther is chance....
let mi noe...


but nw...

all i wan....
is to make myself a useful person....

all i wan.....
is to find out...
hw do i take sufferings away from ur life.....
and let u feel comfortable...
even when u arent wif timmy....


all i wan....
is to noe u more by being ur friend.....


all i wan....
is to noe hw u feel inside...
so i can help you to tok to pple....


all i wan....
is u and NRA to be ok...

if one day...
i noe the solution....
i will nt hesitate to execute it...

cos....

i wan u to be happy....

i dun wan u to be stress and sad till u cry...

i treasure every sec of ur company....

i swear....

wat i said...
its the truth...

wat i onli sad abt....
is the time i spend wif u is limited....

with LOVE ; *
3:53 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

wat m i to you?


i dunno....
i gt a feeling....

i aint ur frien.....
cos u dun tok to mi like one....
cos i aint treated like one?
since when will you use "anyway" or "by the way"?
even to friens...
u dun even use those words ba.......

of cos...
i aint the one you love anymore....
cos....
all i feel is....cold....cold till the freezing point....
even if.....
you noe that i love you....
you can assure that i wun run away wif other pple....
you noe that i wun love other pple....
you noe u feel secure even without mi telling hw much i love you everydae....

but.....
y aint i given anther chance?......

maybe.....
i need to be gone.....
and nt be in ya life.......

maybe we shouldnt even haf contacted each other after the break up....
i shouldnt even bother to befriend with u again....
is this the right path?......

it always seem so confusing....
shld i leave or shld i stay?.....
can i get an ans from you?.....

can you ans my qns truthfully?....

when will i noe the ans?.....


but of cos...
its hard to make u love mi....
cos watever i do....
even more then a friends....
u already use to it le.....
u wun think tat becoz i love you...
i did this...
i did that....
u r too use to wat i do till maybe ther aint appreciation anymore.....
rite?



i really miss you.....
i really miss hugging u.....

can you love me again?

with LOVE ; *
11:32 AM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

hey girl...
i m sorry...
i m still in love with you.....

locking myself up in ma room...
playing those R&B songs from my playlist....
songs saying how much i miss you...
saying how much i love you....

and thinking about you.....
smiling.....

*********************************************************

it all start from here....

in a dimly litted room.....
slow and romantic R&B songs playing in the background....

both of us were holding a glass of red wine....
after one sip...
i started sweet talking to you.....

i was hopping that i could sing these songs to you...
at the same time...
pulling you closer to me....
slowly and gently hugging u.....
slow dancing to these music...

hugging u even tighter and closer to my body...
till you could feel my every breathe...
whispering the 3 words into your ear....
telling you that i really mean it....
no matter how much it takes....


because.........
i'm really in love with you...
i'm sorry.....

******************************************

hmm.....
think too much le......

abit...
funny though

didnt know to write it in words...
cos....
its a scene in ma head....

i miss you....

with LOVE ; *
4:52 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

i wish i could call you wiffy dear again....

i wish i could hug you again....

i wish i could gif u hug that make u feel secure and warmth again....

i wish we could be that lovely again....

i wish you will be safe.....

i wish you wouldn't get hurt....

i wish u aint silly like mi to wait for someone to return the love like nw.....cos the process is hurtful....

i wish i dun haf anymore flashbacks when i m slpping...its tiring...even till todae....

i wish...whenever i woke up in ur bed...u are lying in my arms slpping soundly..

i wish ur love for mi rekindle again....

nw...i wish its hidden....cos i didnt noe the consequences when its exposed...cos i dun care....
i jus wanna love you....jus wanna be wif you....

i wish i haf the strength to fight ur probs wif u.............as long as i nv die....i willing to fight...

i wish....i could help u obstacles....

*impt* *jus make this wish come true 1st before any other* i wish that that guy could make up his mind....cos...i find him ridiculously ridiculously...sae break off wif u and he come back to u.....then again ask u go find someone better....then after that get in contact wif you again...i noe....from my view.....he is jus hurting u....even if u guys were to haf a relationship....
are u willing to let him be possesive over you?.....are u willing to gif up ur partner work?....are u willing to let him hurt u again like this and came back to u again?. are u willng to gif up ur dream jus for him?....is his love worth for everything u sacrificed for him?...will he appreciate ur sacrifices?....love isnt all abt controlling...its abt supporting too....are u willing to wait for so long to get an ans...at the same time....u didnt noe wher u stand in his heart till now?...he is ur dream guy....that was like when u started to noe him...the caring guy he use to be when he is "wooing" you....which guy will nt treat the person he likes gd?...after sumtime....he will start to show his true colour....didnt haf to tell u this...u can see it urself....even u guys haben started out as couple, he turn possesive....dun allow u to do this....do tat.... dun let pple think that ur easy and foolish....like u let tis kind of guy control ur life....the starting of the "relationship" is already like so messy.....

i wish he will noe that u really love him.....and come back to u and love u wholeheartedly....and forget abt his ex....

i wish i hadnt love you that much.....

i wish there isnt too much love to take back...but it is really alot and deep.....

i wish u will nt misunderstand mi.....

i wish u will get my hint....whenever i ask u...y nt u find some guy that loves u.....

i wish one dae....i will be able to get you back....

i wish everyone will nt assume and find out the real truth before they open their damn fucking big mouth....

i wish haf the wisdom to solve ur prob.....and then mine.....i willing to sit dwn wif u even for 24 hrs jus to hear u out....

i wish....i could make u happy and nt sad.....

with LOVE ; *
5:21 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

sorri...

i.......
think.....
i m still holding on....

with LOVE ; *
2:47 PM

Saturday, December 23, 2006

erm..

dear...
i dunno y our relationship will turn out to be like tat...
i sae before....

i dun wan to pei u so much...
becoz...
u will be sick of it....

nw this happen..
becoz we spend too much time wif each other....
and nv regulate the time between u and ur friens and mi....
naturally u will feel happy wif them....
becoz u havnt been hanging around wif them much...

i mean this is wat i m feeling....

but i think u shld noe hw hurt it would be if someone tell u stuff tat u haf said to mi...
but ya...
truth is always hurtful...

i noe u wouldnt feel the hurt.....
coz..
u r nt the one feeling it...
and of coz...
u dun love mi as much as before...

nw....
it jus feel tat i m waiting for my death....
the pain jus take the whole life out of mi...

i noe u wan to be wif ur friens...
i agree..
they are impt....
doesnt mean u haf to seperate from mi...
partners and friens are different...
they cant be compared....
coz the feeling they gave out is different.....

i m happy....
i enjoy every moment with my friens too....

i rmb u were so upset...
becoz i m veri happy wif them....
its nt becoz u fail to make mi happy....
its jus different...
it becoz i love u...
no matter wat...
u fail to make mi happy....
or u make mi sad....
it will nt change my love towards u....

they make mi happy.....
when it happen...
then i will luff....
but after tat..
its gone...

but when u make mi happy....
whenevr i tot of it...
i will smile....
it seems to be lasting....
its in the heart.....

u will be happy wif them becoz.....
of the mixture of different character in a group...
whereas....
ther is onli mi....
a loner.....

i had try my best...
to tok to u....
ur probs.....
help u to think of ways u could do to make u feel comfortable...
but...
sumtime...
my ways are jus rejected....
izzit becoz i m nt clever enuff?.....

i noe...
sumtime...
i didnt phrase my words in the proper manner...
and sumhw it affects u..
and the attitude...
i m jus pissed becoz..
when i m trying to help...
u always sae dunno....
sorri...
and
becoz my english jus couldnt make it....

its my fault for neglecting u in the 1st place...
but...
i hope u understand...
i did nt do it on purpose...
mi too...
i dun wan my friens think of mi in a bad way.....
they are impt.....
but no matter hw impt they are....
they cant gif mi wat u can gif.....
which is love...

as a partner...
i cant be 100% ther for u.....
friens cant too.....

i dunno y u didnt felt loved...
i did my best....
whenever u need mi...
i jus tried my best to be next to u....
comfort u.....

u wan to eat at somewher tat is classy...
i did my best....
i do watever to get the money....

u wan mi to pei u more....
i did my best...
i pulled out of the competition...
the main reason isnt becoz of my studies...
isnt becoz of my parents....
its becoz i wan to spend time wif u.....
i jus lied to them....

i m veri veri happy....
if u wan mi to pei u more...
but it really hurts...
if u do not think of mi.....

i really wan to befriend wif ur classmate...
coz....
i dun wan them to neglect u ad make u feel out...
i know..
i m veri unsociable type of person....
but nt for this time round.....










if i m nt wrong.....
i m nt eating again.....
i cant eat le....
whenever i eat...
it jus vomit again....

with LOVE ; *
7:20 PM